In a roller coaster ride

Yesterday I sleep at my sweet home in KL.

Today I sleep on a Junior Suite at Intercontinental Manila that costing me RM900++ per night.

Damn....

Life is full of crazy things

I feel like I just jump on at roller coaster ride.
It might be a great experience and excitement but I wonder will my heart be able to survive it....

This could be heaven, this could be the end....

Rainy Days

It's been raining for the past few days.

Feel like the joke "这个星期已经下了两场大雨。第一场下了四天，第二场下了三天。"

Every time rain, the traffic become bad.

And in the morning, I just feel don't want to wake up go work.

Feel so negative.

Today also a bad day for me.
I taught I should give it a try.
Try to get closer.
But just feel the distance is still miles away.

I there will be some changes after change to a new job with a more normal working time.
But it didn't.

Perhaps I already know this very long.
Just using my weird shift work time as an excuse.

To hide the fact that I am lonely....

有時候 我真的覺得好寂寞

友誼之光

友谊之光 


人生於世上有幾個知己
多少友誼能長存
今日別離共你雙雙兩握手
友誼常在你我心裏
今天且要暫別
他朝也定能聚首
縱使不能會面
始終也是朋友
說有萬里山 隔阻兩地遙
不需見面 心中也知曉
友誼改不了
人生於世上有幾個知己
多少友誼能長存
今日別離共你雙雙兩握手
友誼常在你我心裏
今天且要暫別
他朝也定能聚首
縱使不能會面
始終也是朋友
說有萬里山 隔阻兩地遙
不需見面 心中也知曉
友誼改不了

This is the main theme song for a very classic movie.
This movie is one of the movie that deeply influence me till today.

I remember I am at my primary school stage when i watch this movie in the TV.
And that time I am deeply scared by the harsh and complicate life in the prison.
And thus tell myself never ever do any wrong and end up in the prison.
Always control your wrath and anger, no matter in whats condition.

Even to this day, when I am driving on the road, I will try not to press the honk when I see the car in front of me driving recklessly. Control my anger...

But I guess now the life in prison is no longer as dark secret society as portray in this movie.
Lot's of activist for human rights have protest to improve the condition. To the point that some people feel life in prison is better than a normal white collar life and student life.

最近比較忙

最近比較忙, 比較忙, 比較忙

New job, new company, new faces, new colleague, new environment, new system, new responsibility.

And I need to catch up a lot....

haiz... really miss the relax at my old job. At least I go to office, I am confident to handle any kind of problem that may arise.

But then can't compare that way. I just started to work for 3 days at this new company. And for old company I have almost 1 year experience there...

No dream is too big to be archive.....

I don't know since when.... Maybe is from all the ultraman cartoon that I watch as a kid. Or maybe is the Masked Kamen Rider. Or those 5 different color hero that each drive a different robot and can join together to combine as a big robot and then go fight other outer space monster. Or is it the long forgotten Robotech/Macross
I guess that time I already feel Japan is a very special place... A place that I wish to go.... But as we all grow older, we will realise some dream is just too hard to realise

I don't know when it start again.. but this dream is all become an impossible to achieve dream. I guess I mature and grow up fast enough not to dream anymore as a kid....

Now this dream to go to Japan is slowly becoming possible for me again...

Or I am making this dream possible.

Going to Japan Tokyo this coming November....

Lesson to learn, no dream is too big to be archive if you keep believing.

Leaving

Gonna leave the current company soon. Of to another new environment and start a new life.
It is all good here... Work is chaotic as usual. But since I have understand of the system here, I still manage to survive. But everything will be a new beginning at the new company. So probably no more Facebook or blogging during work time....

My colleague here suggest for a farewell with me. But for me it kinds of unnecessary, because
1. If we are really friend, then we will still meet each other in the future for dinner etc.
2. If we are just colleague kind of relationship that we won't go out for movie etc, then most likely the farewell is just in the surface. Not the kind that touch the hearts with hugs and wishes...
3. Plus it gonna be quit rush to a nearby restaurant that I am bored with...Unless they choose the expensive French Restaurant downstair. :-)

At first I hope that I can go without anyone notice. Like the poem, "悄悄的我走了， 正如我悄悄的来，我挥一挥衣袖， 不带走一片云彩。" or the song "瀟瀟灑灑的，給我瀟灑的上機，痛痛快快，願能痛快話別離"

I still dream that someone will probably sing one of the song below after know I have left..

你说走就走　一去不再回头
让我在这里　痴痴等候
我以为这一次你只不过是说说而已
没想到你是真的要走


你這剎那在何方　我有說話未曾講
如何能連繫上　與你再相伴在旁


最心痛是　愛得太遲
有些心意　不可等某個日子
盲目地發奮　忙忙忙其實自私
夢中也習慣　有壓力要我得志
最可怕是　愛需要及時
只差一秒　心聲都已變歷史
忙極亦放肆　見我愛見的相知
要抱要吻要怎麼也好
偏要推說等下一次



Enough... too many song jor... XD
Will be endless if continue...

Leaving now... see what is the new "缘分" in the new company....

Time.....

Time is the best remedy for all wounds....

Time is also human biggest enemy....



Time slowly heal my sorrow and heart break.

Time also slowly age me.

Recently I start to notice wrinkle at my forehead...
Must got get some anti aging face care during my next trip....

I still remember when I first start to work, my colleague say I look so young and do not believe that I am 22. But now I am no longer the youngest in the company. My current company for example, have staff that is born in the 90s. That is almost 10 years younger than me. When I see them, I still feel I do not look too different from them. But when talk, I notice how naive inmature I am in the past. Haiz....