Love your job, but never Love your company

Love your job, but never Love your company
Because you never know when the company will stop to love you
And in most case, the company don't love you, appreciate you or reward you with gift and bonus

That is a a word of advice from a senior friend. And I always find this ultimate truth.

Sometimes it really demotivate me to work when I am making sacrifice for the company but not appreciated.
Like I continue to come work when I am not feeling well and the company treat me as I am lazying around here and not doing work properly...

Expiry Date....

不知道从什么时候开始，在什么东西上面都有个日期，秋刀鱼会过期，肉罐头会过期，连保鲜纸都会过期，我开始怀疑，在这个世界上，还有什么东西是不会过期的？

Somehow everything comes with an expiry date. Swordfish expires. Meat sauce expires. Even cling-film expires. Is there anything in the world which doesn't?


Quoted from the movie 《重庆森林》 or Chung King Express.

That is my feeling now.


I just found out Friendster have change. Change the interface etc. No email is sent to inform me to keep the old photo. They just delete it.....


The photo of a very expensive meal that I have with her got deleted just like that. Together with this incident, is my feeling got deleted just like that. Perhaps it is what should happen to a love that have past the expiry date. It is should be throw away. But why I just feel such a sadness in my heart?

I just feel melancholy again...

我可能不会爱你

听过很多台湾的网友说这个《我可能不会爱你》偶像剧很好看。
看到第二集，我觉得他比很多台湾偶像剧好看。 没那么的漫画感觉。 比较贴近我们现实生活。
这个偶像剧也有很多美女。 有台大五姬的国企匡—陈匡怡和资工弥—余涵弥。 小周慧敏,陳匡怡真的超可爱。 他真得很像周慧敏。
剧里的女主角程又青很像我。靠近初老了，三十岁了，却发现我身边值得我去努力的女生好像都没有。我比她参的是我没有个大仁哥在身边。

我真得很讨厌现在的生活。感觉好像行尸走肉的过日子。 也许我需要少林足球那样，要有梦想。人没梦想那跟僵尸有什么分别。

看到第8集。 感觉好伤心。我哭了很多次。 好像从没有看戏剧哭得那么多次。 受过伤的心， 所以有很多的感觸。

男人不坏，女人不爱。我想这句话是因为，坏人中会不安牌理出牌。 大仁的妹妹也说了，普通人会说 “我好想你”， 坏人会说 “现在出现在我面前”。
我就一定不能像丁立伟那样，走去又青的办公室，趴在和他同一个楼梯， 吃他的豆腐。 我太理智了。不可能像他那样。。。。

看到第11集， 我突然想起，我好象做过和李大仁很象的事。 为了让最喜欢的人不那么担心，为了让他高兴， 就是缀合他和别人，也会用尽全力去做。
只为了不像看到他不快乐，只为了他幸福。就算这样会让他很伤心， 很伤心。。。。。

有句话我放在心里很久了，爱情虽然不是同情，但是能够陪着你哭，能够在你不高兴时候让你快乐的人，你要懂得珍惜。就算不爱他， 也要用心的去关心他。 因为这世界上， 会陪着你哭的人不多。

还有假如你遇到一个能搞让你感动的哭的人，就好好想想你和他的关系。因为能搞感动到你的人， 是对你很特别的人。例如， 在情人节，有100个男生送你花， 但是只有一个人送的花是让你感动到流泪，那个人就是你很特别的人。 也许你爱上了他，你也没发现。

每天看完了《我可能不会爱你》偶像剧我就会发表我的感想。 是我真心感受。甜酸苦辣都有。看到结局, 看到程又青和李大仁他们有情人终成眷属, 真的好感动。 以前就会想要轰轰烈烈,爱到你死我也活不了的那种爱情。现在觉得,能像他们那样才是辛福。

One Day

I finally watch this movie One Day. The story of 2 person that meet on a one fine day and it become their annual event every year to meet up on this date. They become the closest kind of "Just Friend". Really sweet movie but can be sad too depend on how you view it.




Really love it coz it just feel so sweet.I like some of the words it the movie
"I need to speak to someone. Not someone. You"
"She made you decent. And in return you made her so Happy"


Love really just happen on that some day. Sometimes maybe just that one sudden special moment that you will notice that this is the person you want to spend the rest of the life with. No logic explanation.

Maybe that just what happen with me and her. So close yet so far. I have been trying to avoid contacting her but I slowly find my will getting weaker..... I notice she just arranged for a trip with some friends to Vietnam.

Feels like everyone making some progress to some place but only me is still staying at the same spot, wondering and loss direction. Maybe that is the reason why I am out of luck in love....

I need to get up and move again.

2012

The much feared 2012 is finally here.

So is it doomday? From the look of global weather changes that is happening, it seems to prove that we are getting closer to our own doom. Anyway, whether this will happen or not we can't do much to change it back
So lets just live our life.

First lets look back 2011, a year of ups and down. I got fired or I should say everybody in my ex company got screwed and lost their job suddenly. And it is on 11 Sept. Such a nice date 911.

That is perhaps the bottom of the valley for me in 2011. But all the time that pass while slowly reaching Sept is stretching me too... Wondering around aimlessly.
I start to wonder what I am worth.

Thus the decision to go Bangkok for relax seems to be a foolish one but I really enjoy it.
Woke up in familiar city name but strange scenery compare to Kuala Lumpur. It feels like a new life, a new begining.

Seeing how everyone rush around trying to survive. Makes me think back the past event and what I have done.

And then the back to Malaysia to look for a job...
Also hearing people around me wondering why I gone to Bangkok for 2 consecutive year.
I guess silent is best answer for this because the more you talk about it, the more they can imagine.

And so 2011 past by. Time do not wait for anyone. Either you keep up with it or get left behind.

2012 arrive with a good sign. On 1st Jan 2012, I went to Genting Casino and got stop by the cop. They taught I am underage teenager trying to sneak into the casino. So I happily show them my identification card that clearly show I am well over the teenager age. But I am not angry with the cop.
Coz he just feel that I look young. (^____^)

Of course the other good sign is the small fortune I have with my luck in the casino. (^______________^)

So this seems to indicate 2012 will be a good year.


When you're happy like a fool
Let it take you over
When everything is out
You gotta take it in

Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life

Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life

Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh
A good good life Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.

当你需要时，是否有人蹲下来陪你做一只蘑菇？

当你需要时，是否有人蹲下来陪你做一只蘑菇？


有一个精神病人，以为自己是一只蘑菇，
於是他每天都撑著一把伞蹲在房间的墙角裡，不吃也不喝，
像一只真正的蘑菇一样..

心理医生想了一个办法。
有一天，心理医生也撑了一把伞，蹲坐在了病人的旁边。
病人很奇怪地问：你是谁呀？
医生回答：我也是一只蘑菇呀。
病人点点头，继续做他的蘑菇。

过了一会儿，医生站了起来，在房间裡走来走去，
病人就问他：你不是蘑菇麼，怎麼可以走来走去？
医生回答说：蘑菇当然也可以走来走去啦！
病人觉得有道理，就也站起来走走。

又过了一会儿，医生拿出一个汉堡包开始吃，
病人又问：咦，你不是蘑菇麼，怎麼可以吃东西？
医生理直气壮地回答：蘑菇当然也可以吃东西呀！
病人觉得很对，於是也开始吃东西。

几个星期以后，这个精神病人就能像正常人一样生活了，
虽然，他还觉得自己是一只蘑菇.

其实..
一个人可以带著过去的创伤继续，只要他把悲伤放在心裡的一个圈圈里，
不要让苦痛浸染了他的整个生命，他就可以像正常人一样快乐地生活..

当一个人悲伤得难以自持的时候，
也许，他不需要太多的劝解和安慰，训诫和指明，
他需要的，
只是能有一个人在他身边蹲下来，
陪他做一只蘑菇.. ^^


See this interesting story from a blog

我明白，我要的爱，不存在这个世界。 我只能一个人生活。

我明白，我要的爱，不存在这个世界。

我只能一个人生活。

我要的那个人，我在等的那个爱，是只能出现在戏或爱情小说里。

现实是残酷的。