What is happening....

What has happen to me?

Basically nothing much to say. Just enjoying my life.
My one month long holiday is reaching end soon. Left around 2 more weeks.
So lets start to do some summary.

First, now is already 7th Feb. At first I feel I can do the XML template for this blog in a week or 2 during my long holiday. But in the end, I give up after see the long coding. Haiz... feel I really wasted my years of study programming in college.

So CNY is coming and this year is the same day with Valentine day. Both also a bad day for me.
Coz CNY means I need to face my relative asking me the same question, How are you, got gf, when going to get marry. Haiz... (*A friend tell me not to Haiz too much but when ever I think of my problem, can't help not to haiz..........................*)

Valentine also a bad day for me coz I don't have gf. On day like this, I will wish that there is a hand that can let me hold, a head that will rest on my shoulder. A girl that will close her eyes and wait for me to kiss her lips. But on this days, I never ever have a girl that willing to do all these for me. Coz fate not arrive yet? Or coz I am not good enough? I believe is 2nd reason.

Life is a maze and love is a riddle

I dun know how to find my way in this life. And I can't solve the Love riddle.
I can only work hard everyday running but I find myself still running in circle.
I remember a song. Part of the lyric say, "I have walk on hot fire everyday and night in this buring hell. But the dream of seeing paradise is never realize. I have use all my strength to continue journey of life. I don't want to die because I wish to have a better life. But when I taught I reach the final destination, I realize final is just another beginning of another journey"
Suitable for me. I dun know answer for a lot of life question. Dun know which way to go out of this maze, dun know where is the final destination of my life journey, dun know who is the answer in the love riddle. I only know, I need to continue live on to find out. So gambateh to myself.

This blog I also dun know when I will update it. At first I create it coz night time in office is very free most of the time. Too many time for me to think of lot of things. Thus start my idea of creating this blog and scribe down what is on my mind. But now, Facebook seems to occupy most of my free time. I even think of closing this blog. So what do all my close friends that browse this blog think of?