Saturday, March 27, 2010

Season

We always say Malaysia only have one season. That is hot and humid all year long.

But I always feel we have many season. Season of fruit such as Mangosteen, Durian, Rambutan. Season of sick like Aedes, cold, cough. ( This is very common in office, when one or 2 person cough, the whole office will be coughing too )

Also there is season of love, where everyone around you suddenly will like be in love dating etc.

There is also season of exam, the nightmare for all student. These are the time that library will suddenly be full of student. Hahaha

Right now the season I can feel is season of wedding.
Everyone seems to be talking abt wedding. Either gone to take wedding photo, arranging where to held the wedding dinner. Or asking friend to help on wedding day.

For me, as usual I guess. Season of loneliness.
Sometimes I do feel I am so alone.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Stop, breathe and feel the world. Life is beautiful.

Been a while since my last post.
Time fly without us noticing.

I still feel 2010 have just arrive but now we are in the 3rd month of 2010.

Now is 3rd week in my new company. Work is not too stress. Colleague is friendly too.
So Life is Beautiful.

Some of my office photo to share with you all.












This last photo is the one I like the most.




A very beautiful sunrise.
After take this photo, I took a moment to just stare at the sun rise.
And then I feel, Life is so beautiful.
Beautiful things happen everyday around us and yet we all take it for granted.
Even blaming the GOD or asking why bad things happend to us. Why we can't just don't do work and have money to spend.

Life is beautiful, if we just take a small bit of time to feel its beauty.
When is the last time you look up the blue sky and see cloud dancing on it?
When is the last time you see a full blue moon?

Saturday, February 6, 2010

What is happening....

What has happen to me?

Basically nothing much to say. Just enjoying my life.
My one month long holiday is reaching end soon. Left around 2 more weeks.
So lets start to do some summary.

First, now is already 7th Feb. At first I feel I can do the XML template for this blog in a week or 2 during my long holiday. But in the end, I give up after see the long coding. Haiz... feel I really wasted my years of study programming in college.

So CNY is coming and this year is the same day with Valentine day. Both also a bad day for me.
Coz CNY means I need to face my relative asking me the same question, How are you, got gf, when going to get marry. Haiz... (*A friend tell me not to Haiz too much but when ever I think of my problem, can't help not to haiz..........................*)

Valentine also a bad day for me coz I don't have gf. On day like this, I will wish that there is a hand that can let me hold, a head that will rest on my shoulder. A girl that will close her eyes and wait for me to kiss her lips. But on this days, I never ever have a girl that willing to do all these for me. Coz fate not arrive yet? Or coz I am not good enough? I believe is 2nd reason.

Life is a maze and love is a riddle

I dun know how to find my way in this life. And I can't solve the Love riddle.
I can only work hard everyday running but I find myself still running in circle.
I remember a song. Part of the lyric say, "I have walk on hot fire everyday and night in this buring hell. But the dream of seeing paradise is never realize. I have use all my strength to continue journey of life. I don't want to die because I wish to have a better life. But when I taught I reach the final destination, I realize final is just another beginning of another journey"
Suitable for me. I dun know answer for a lot of life question. Dun know which way to go out of this maze, dun know where is the final destination of my life journey, dun know who is the answer in the love riddle. I only know, I need to continue live on to find out. So gambateh to myself.

This blog I also dun know when I will update it. At first I create it coz night time in office is very free most of the time. Too many time for me to think of lot of things. Thus start my idea of creating this blog and scribe down what is on my mind. But now, Facebook seems to occupy most of my free time. I even think of closing this blog. So what do all my close friends that browse this blog think of?

Monday, January 11, 2010

Lazy piggy 2010 first blog entry

The title of this blog entry very suitable rite. XD

Actually got many things want to share with my friends but really I am too lazy. (=_=")

However give me 2 weeks time and I will be more free, to redecorate this blog template and then I will start update the blog.

Now share a bit what I am bz with lately.
Work schedule change already. Off work at 2.30pm. Sound interesting? but I start work at 5.30am. (><)

However, this just gonna be a very short period change. Coz I gonna leave the company. Nothing gonna change my mind to leave. The company is letting me down so much.

2010 is entering week 3. Or you can say as week 2 depend on you. Chinese believe year of tiger is a year of obstacle. Many of my Facebook friends also say 2010 do not seems to be a good year for them. For me, it seems to be a good year. Even after I have accepted the offer from new company, I still getting others company and agency call in regards that there is vacancy in their company and they hope to recruit me. I just upload my resume at Jobstreet and JobsDB etc website. Not that I go and apply the position. So is like job looking for me. I am getting headhunt. Hahahaha!!!

Perhaps it is destiny that 2010 is a years of change for me. Hope it is a change for good. And rite now, it looks bright prospect.

Monday, December 28, 2009

I am wasting my time....

So boring that I started to compose song... :P

What's the time
seems just an hour have pass
I see my monitor screen, the time is just 11am
I am in office
But only thing in my mind, is my lovely bed

Oh, I get up and try to go to washroom
I try to read story but I am still boring
I thanks to lord above
That my sanity is still with me
even thou I am boring till crazy

*wasting my time... surfing the internet
Felling so dumb
I stare at my monitor
hoping that 5pm will reach faster
I'm wasting my time..

I try to surf the internet but dun know what to find
I go to facebook and it show page cannot be display
oh, help me please
is there someone who can make me
wake up from this dream

Repeat *

#I'm wasting my time
Checking my spam email
I fall asleep to the sound
of "teet, time is 11am"
A prayer gone blind

I'm wasting my time

My friend keep telling me
hey your job so good
no need do work but still get pay
this is the ideal job for many ppl so dun complain

wooo

Repeat * and #

This is the original song.



Another song that I found in my spam email box.
also very suitable for me

The lyrics to the song to be sung in the tune of "You're Beautiful" by James Blunt, play along the attached song.

Song title : My Cubicle

My job is stupid,
My day's a bore,
Inside this office,
From 8 to 4.

Nothing ever happens,
My life is pretty blank,
Pretending that I am working,
Pray I don't get canned.

My cubicle, my cubicle,
It's 1 of 62,
It's my small space,
In a crowded place,
Just a six by six board booth,
And I hate it, that's the truth.

When I give a sigh,
As the boss walks by,
No one ever talks to me,
Or looks me in the eye,
And I really should work,
But instead I just sit here,
And surf the internet.

And my cubicle, my cubicle,
It doesn't have a view,
It's my small space,
In a crowded place,
I sit inside there too,
And sometimes I sit here nude.


Monday, December 21, 2009

Chronicle of event that happens recently

14 Dec - Finally getting call from that company again. And it is confirm that they will offer me the job with the salary that I requested. (^^). Once I get and sign the offer letter, I will tender my resignation letter. The company will courier the offer letter to me since I am not able to go to the company during office hour to sign the letter. So if all work as planned then 22 Feb gonna start work in new company. Hooray!

15 Dec - Car break down again. This time, due to the car got a tyre puncture, I need to change the tyre. But problem happen with the spare tyre rim cannot use back the same screw. It need a shorter screw that is found at the car bonnet together with the spare tyre. Due to this information is not pass to me by my mechanic father, I use the longer screw to tighten the spare tyre to the car. Result of this is the brake failure due to mass heat generated from traction. And yes the car need to be repair again. My dear Peugeot seems like getting more and more frequent breakdown. (><) Is it sign that I need to change car?

16 Dec - Letter arrive at my house. Go thru the term & condition of the contract. All is same as what I discuss earlier during initial meeting. So left is tender the letter and see what response I will get. Based on the dept situation, I guess he should try to counter the offer as he really short of experienced staff to do work. But then if he offer increment earlier, I will not taught of changing company. Screw him for trying to treat me as cheap slave. Now unless he will give me RM 5,000 salary, else continue stay at this dept is out of consideration.

17 Dec - Gonna be a tough day for me. I really hope can get support from my friend or people that know what I will do today. I updated status at FB but seems like no one notice. Except for Ling Ling. She the only one left to care for me? I dun know. I guess just some of them dun like to comment on my FB. Like my old TARC friends. Or some just dun even check their FB that frequent to notice the status changes.

I keep login using 3G to access FB and check the status. Only at 10.30am when I see Ling support, I got the courage to actually go tender the letter.

Things happen as what I expect, he try to counter the offer. He will check what is the resource he has and then only tell me the new offer he gonna make. But it is already too late.

Still this is a tough day for me, as there is a BBQ party that will be organize later to say farewell to the Australia trainer that fly to Malaysia to teach us abt this new department. Both of them are nice people. And kinda sad needing to wear a mask and smile in front of them when deep in my heart I know I just want to leave them. I hate hypocrite. But then to live in this world, we need to wear mask and be hypocrite sometimes.

In the end of the day, I am a happier person. Coz I already see the end of the journey with this company. Things do look brighter in new company. A total new environment and a boss that have a good history. This boss is said to be the best Operation Manager ever to work in my old department. And senior staff still remember him even after the Operation Manager changes 3-4 times. So it show what legacy he has. Looking forward to work under him.

18 Dec - Holiday again. (^_^). Got planned to go movie marathon. Will watch 4 movie in 10 hours time. Start with Avatar > Couples Retreat > Bodyguards and Assassins (十月圍城) > Princess and Frog. Kinda crazy stuff to do. But I need it, to release my feelings after yesterday.

Avatar is a great movie. James Cameron able to create a very very beautiful world of Pandora. And I cannot help but fall in love with this beautiful world. So deeply in love that when I see human destroy it, tears start to build up in my eyes and slide down uncontrollably. It kinda weird to think about it, coz I am always the kind of people who enjoy destorying other people home. I use to love bury the hole in the earth that the ant make as their home. And see how the ant try to slowly remove the earth and create back their home. But now I like feeling what I am doing is so so so wrong. Just like when human cut down Navi people HomeTree.

Kudos to James Cameron. Fantastic 3D visual effect that is not just there as cosmetic but create deep feeling for the viewer of the movie. When compare it with what 2012 did, 2012 special effect is just "wow" but not that deep.

19 Dec - Avatar 3D 2nd round at Pavilion. Also my first Japanese sushi meal for almost a month. Since I start coughing at being of November, I have not have any Japanese Sushi. I MISS SALMON SASHIMI. Order lot of it and finish it almost entirely by myself.

2nd round experience with Avatar. This time still feel sad but at least I don't cry like the first time. Also the storyline etc is much more clearer this time. Due to the 3D movie, there is no subtitles like the normal 2D movie. And so need more listening skill to understand what they are saying. Begin to notice a lot of reference from various movie and games. The animal in Navi do feel like coming out from computer game. Red XIII? or Cereberus? And the story of a planet that have a spirit sound so freaking similiar to FF VII. Just that Eywa is replace with LifeStream. And the part that when Jake Sully go around finding other tribe to join in the battle against human, it feel like Lord Of The Ring again. Even their name is so similiar. "Land of Riders" Rohan :P

20 Dec - Gonna be a resting day at home after 2 days of going out. But then in the end, I kind of force to go out too. My sis BF force me to go Jogoya with him and my sis. Have a great devil meal with lots and lots of meat. And I don't need to pay for it. :P

A great Sunday weekend given the nice meal I have at night. But I dun feel too great due to 2 reason.
First is tomorrow is Monday. Working day for me.
Second is at 8.30am morning, got an SMS from a unknown person. Or I should say someone I know before, just that I remove her from my contact list. The message is very short. Just 6 words and 3 dots " I dreamt of you yesterday nite..."

A simple short message yet I wonder why she wanted to tell me this. She always is like this, trying to make you feel that you are very very special to her. And when you feel you really is, she will destroy it all by downgrading you to a nobody in her heart. I try to call her back but she did not answer my call. In the end I can only give up thinking about it. Coz I learn a hard lesson that trying to guess what is in her mind is an idiot things. Coz even she herself also do not know what is in her mind. Or in another way to say is, she change too fast that what in her mind this day will change to a total opposite the next day.

So begin the day with a bad sms that woke me up and prevent me from sleeping again. End the day with a big dinner meal at Jogoya. Energize for the coming week? I guess not. More like feeling exhausted.

21 Dec - Back to work. Counter offer is given to me. Although it is more then what I expect they will offer, it still not enough to change my mind. If only they offer this salary earlier. But there is too many "if" in this world. So final decision. LEAVE.

And I really do agree that I am making a right decision. coz today from 8am come to work until 12pm, the only work I did is go online surf net and writing this blog. Then lunch and back. training is only at 2pm till 3pm. And then continue wasting time till 5pm. If this is the work I gonna do, I can't see any future in this dept at all.

22 Dec - A chinese festival day. Dongzhi Festival. Not sure what lies ahead for my "training" today. Just hope that it will not be wasting my time again.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

My Dear Car

To My Super Nice Owner,

Sorry that I always break down. Give you trouble. Causing you headache and heart attack. But I really don't want to be like this. I am old. 20 years old car already.

I will do my best to serve you. Please do always keep me with you.
Love you. *MUACKS*

From
Apple Green Peugeot "5581"

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To Apple Green Peugeot "5581"

You arr... Last month and this month combine. Cost me RM1k for your tyre, clutch, gear box suspension, Engine Suspension etc. And not that all, driving you when you making weird sound is the one that make me most tension. Dun know when you will stop moving. Dun know will you at least survive till my dad car workshop or not.

Really think of want to buy a new car and replace you.
But still I got many memory with you.
And you still is my dearest car.
I know some of your problem is also due to my careless mistake.
So I won't blame you all the time.
Also when you break down, I start to learn more on how to take care you.
Remember when you first get the clutch cable break. And causing the car no clutch.
I really tension. Don't know how to drive a manual gear car that don't have clutch.
But now, I know how to do it. (^^)

So don't you worry, we both upgrade ourself together. You be more "guai guai" and I learn more of ur drawback.
Just like a pair of old couple. We tolerate each other till white hair lor. :P

From
Super Nice Owner