Thursday, April 21, 2011

Love make me strong, without love I am Lost.......

Today is her birthday. I do not know who or how she will celebrate it, but I guess she will find a lavish way to cheer herself up and then say it is just a normal one. Not extravagant sweet etc.

But why need a lavish way just for birthday? If it is someone else birthday she will be saying that too. But if it is her birthday it will be totally different.

That is her.

Friends that is close to me always wonder why I am so in love with her? I feel stronger, feel more energy, feel anything can be better when I think of her. Like when I am deep bad mood, a smile from her will light up my day. Like when I go casino gamble, thinking of her seems to bring me luck and win money (100% False illusion). It will really be silly if you think of it from logic view. Like how can you be more energetic to go work and find more money, when works are still the same with or without her? But still to all those fools that is in love, they do find more energy to go work when they are in love. If you don't, then probably you don't love that person as much as you think.

Why would that happen? Perhaps is think of the bright future together with her. Perhaps you feel you need to be strong to protect her. Perhaps is love make the body hormone producing more endorphin and thus you feel more energy.

So now, without love, I am lost. Really....

I feel like I am a boat floating in the sea, without any direction. Without any bright future that I should work towards it.

MELANCHOLY MOOD......................

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