Look back for year 2012

The much anticipated End of the World did not come. Too bad, I am still breathing.
Still can continue to catch my dream

Now let see back all the big thing that happen this year.
1. Finally bought my first car. Perodua Myvi.
2. Went to a dream place, Japan.
3. Celebrated my birthday at Disneyland, Tokyo.
4. Seen Mount Fuji
5. Got a new job offer and now working at a global chocolate company.
6. Live to see the year 2012 is not end of the world. There is still 2013
7. The last of the "Special date that you won't live to see again" is finally seen by me. Bye Bye to those 11.11.11 or 20.12.2012 date.

Tokyo trip - Things to take note

Things to take note | Pre Tokyo Trip | Tokyo Trip Day 1 | Tokyo Trip Day 2 - Shinjuku |
Tokyo Trip Day 2 - Harajuku | Tokyo Day 2 - Shibuya | Tokyo Trip Day 3 - DisneySea |
Tokyo Trip Day 4 - Hakone | Tokyo Trip Day 5 - Odaiba | Tokyo Trip Day 6 - Ueno |
Tokyo Trip Day 6 - Akihabara | Tokyo Trip Day 6 - Roppongi | Tokyo Trip Day - Hotel Room | Tokyo Trip Day 7 - Tsukiji | Tokyo Trip Day 7 - Ginza | Tokyo Trip Day 7 - Ciba |
Tokyo Trip Day 7 - Asakusa | Tokyo Trip Day 8 - Aoyama | Tokyo Trip Day 8 - Tokyo |
Tokyo Trip Day 8 - Haneda


Back from a 9 days trip to Tokyo. Will write a full travel blog later but first a few things to take note.

1. Tokyo or I should say Japan is full of place to spend money. You will enjoy it if you are loaded with cash. For shopaholic  the branded stuff in Japan is cheaper compare to Malaysia. (Note : I just walk in to some of the shop and have a quick glance. Not thru survey). A lot of the brand is not available in Malaysia. 
2. Those over cutie stuff from Japan Anime and Manga is all over the place. You can find them at special character shop, normal 24 hour mart etc. But all of them is made in China and wear the Japan price tag. A simple steel key chain can cost you 500-800yen. And that is RM20-RM32.
3. Subway in Tokyo can be a nightmare for those with lack of direction. Some busy train station that is intersection of many different train line is like a big dungeon maze. There is many different train operator in Tokyo, the common one is JR line and Tokyo Metro. And these different train operator normally means that the station for their line lies at different place within the same train station. A walk from one line to another might be 300 meter away. And to confuse you more, some line have "Rapid" or "Express" line. That means the train won't stop at certain train station. Most train have 2 direction travelling and the train is at different platform and different level. I am lost a few times waiting for the right train line but wrong direction train. Thus when you are in a station, you need to be sure which direction train you need to take or you will end up using more time to reach destination. Take note on the next few train station after your destination, that will give you hint are you on the right train or not.
   Also take note, some train station go till Level 5 underground.
4. There is 2 common "Touch n Go" card that can be use in Japan. Suica and Pasmo. Both can be used for all the train ride in Japan. Some shop and vending machine also accept these card as payment method. You can get the card at ticket vending machine in the train station.
5. The pedestrian walkway is also used by bicycle rider. And there is a lot of Japanese travel around using bicycle. Thus when you walk at walkway, go straight. Do not sway to side when you see something interesting on the left or right. Some cycle the bicycle very fast.
6. Most Japanese is very friendly and willing to show you the way. But their English is very poor. I have get better direction shown when I ask the Police at Tokyo. The police officer English level is higher. Or maybe I am lucky. On my 2 occasion asking direction from a police, they can communicate with me using English that I can understand easily.
7. Even if you see English word and Chinese character, the way Japanese define these word may differ a lot. For example, I have a hard time looking for "Washroom" and "Toilet". It turn out, Japan people refer these place as "Lavatory". Another example is I can see a lot of place mark 无料. After some google and checking with the hotel concierge, what it means is "FREE" or 免费. See how big difference it is. 
8. The road crossing is also different from Malaysia. For first few time, take note on the Japan person next to you, cross when he also crossing. Else you will need to take note as the car that is turning left at the Cross Junction, can have green light when the crossing zebra is also showing green light for pedestrian to cross road. And in some major road, the zebra crossing is not just forming a square. It allow you to cross the opposite. Example, Shibuya human train crossing. A very interesting experience. Hard to imagine how many people is crossing the road each time the light go green.
9. Water from pipe in Japan is safe for consuming. You do not need to buy mineral water. 
10. The food price in Tokyo can range from "Free" till RM1000++ per meal. For free meal, just go to Isetan or some supermarket and there is booth free to try food. 2nd choice is the bento set at Isetan or those 24 hours mart. 3rd choice is Lunch time menu. Normally meal is cheaper at lunch time then other time or during dinner time. Street food is not cheap food. Most meal will cost you RM30 till RM40. And for those who wanted to try good food, go research for some Michelin restaurant. Tokyo have more Michelin Star restaurant than France or any country.
11. Earthquake is a normal affair in Tokyo. It happen once or more every month. But it usually not reported in news because Earthquake of magnitude 5 or below. But still you can be consider lucky if you experienced it. I did not experience any earthquake during my stay there.
12. Shopping can be real different experience compare to Malaysia. Most of the time I am walking in back alley or checking out the basement, 2nd or 3rd floor of a small shop lot. Most interesting and cheaper stuff is found in place like this. The shop facing the main road normally is occupy by big chain company that have loads of cash. Example, Uniqlo, Burberry, Gucci, Prada etc.
13. Japanese people have very strong sense of copyright. So do not enter shop like LV with a fake imitation. Some comment that the shop sales girl have right to confiscate your fake LV handbag.
14. Also do not try to take photo of the shop product or the people in the shop. Be polite to ask for permission if you really want to take it. You never know if the shop is protected by Yakuza etc.
15. One last advice is never ever take taxi in Tokyo. Unless you willing to pay RM1000 or more for a taxi ride.

Things to take note | Pre Tokyo Trip | Tokyo Trip Day 1 | Tokyo Trip Day 2 - Shinjuku |
Tokyo Trip Day 2 - Harajuku | Tokyo Day 2 - Shibuya | Tokyo Trip Day 3 - DisneySea |
Tokyo Trip Day 4 - Hakone | Tokyo Trip Day 5 - Odaiba | Tokyo Trip Day 6 - Ueno |
Tokyo Trip Day 6 - Akihabara | Tokyo Trip Day 6 - Roppongi | Tokyo Trip Day - Hotel Room | Tokyo Trip Day 7 - Tsukiji | Tokyo Trip Day 7 - Ginza | Tokyo Trip Day 7 - Ciba |
Tokyo Trip Day 7 - Asakusa | Tokyo Trip Day 8 - Aoyama | Tokyo Trip Day 8 - Tokyo |
Tokyo Trip Day 8 - Haneda

Reaching the dream....

I am so tired.... Recently feel every night don't wish to sleep.
Every morning don't wish to wake up. Don't wish to go work.

Everyday feel so exhausted after work. And feel am I suitable for the job or not.

My ex boss once told me,
You need to stand up.
You need to think of what you want for your life.
Try something that scared you everyday and be strong.
Don't be deceive by the current situation. Coz since you are young, you have overcome all obstacle to reach what you are today. When you face the SPM exam, you think this time you will die and cannot pass the exam, but you pass in the end.
Don't take "No" for an answer. Learn to negotiate. Get the best out of it.

Think back about all these words, these are perhaps the best staff development that he give to me.
I still don't know what I want in 10 years.
I still unsure what future I wish for myself.

I just know I am trying mybest to get more more $$$.

So that I can reach my dream.
Go around the world.

Tomorrow I will reach one of my dream location..... (^___^)

有人疼才顯得多麼出眾

Last week gone to sing K with a friend.
And she sing a song.
I remember I have heard this song many times over the radio.
But only that day I really listen to the lyric.
And I almost cry because the lyric is so suitable.
Like singing my story....

天后 歌詞
作詞：彭學斌 作曲：彭學斌


And the part that tell my story.......

你要的不是我 而是一種虛榮
有人疼才顯得多麼出眾
我陷入盲目狂戀的寬容
成全了你萬眾寵愛的天后
若愛只剩誘惑 只剩彼此忍受
別再互相折磨
因為我們都有錯

如果有一天愛不再迷惑
足夠去看清所有是非對錯
直到那個時候 你在我的心中
將不再被歌頌 把你當作天后
不會再是我

《犀利人妻最終回：幸福男．不難》

《犀利人妻最終回：幸福男．不難》



 A fierce wife.
I wonder why it is called a fierce wife.
As the main "wife" in this drama or movie is not fierce at all.
Because she is not fierce therefore she got bully.
Her husband got seduce by her own cousin.
Her house got live by them.
Her bed is slept by them.
Even her beloved daughter is almost taken from her.

 I really wanted to punch the guy.
After all he has done to this "wife", he still think maybe they can get back together again.
Lucky in the end he realize what he should do.
He understand that he should let go the hand so that the "wife" can go find the happiness.

The movie could have a higher rating from me if the story is more flowing and the ending can be less sudden twist. It feel so dramatic that the main character need to fly all the way to find their love one and then scream in front of the chapel to stop the wedding. Should they also put song like "25 minutes" at this part?

Otherwise it could be a much better movie.

Two part of the movie make me shed tears.
First is when after all the guy did, the girl still left him alone at the wedding registration.

It just touch a sensitive spot of my heart and tear start to flow down my cheek.

Another part is when the girl best friend say....
"The reason I choose my current husband is because I feel most comfortable when I am with him"

Cause it remind me of her....

I wonder is it I do not give you this comfortable feeling?

Or perhaps you just need the luxury feeling and get surrounded by Gucci, Prada, Channel, and LV......

In a roller coaster ride

Yesterday I sleep at my sweet home in KL.

Today I sleep on a Junior Suite at Intercontinental Manila that costing me RM900++ per night.

Damn....

Life is full of crazy things

I feel like I just jump on at roller coaster ride.
It might be a great experience and excitement but I wonder will my heart be able to survive it....

This could be heaven, this could be the end....

Rainy Days

It's been raining for the past few days.

Feel like the joke "这个星期已经下了两场大雨。第一场下了四天，第二场下了三天。"

Every time rain, the traffic become bad.

And in the morning, I just feel don't want to wake up go work.

Feel so negative.

Today also a bad day for me.
I taught I should give it a try.
Try to get closer.
But just feel the distance is still miles away.

I there will be some changes after change to a new job with a more normal working time.
But it didn't.

Perhaps I already know this very long.
Just using my weird shift work time as an excuse.

To hide the fact that I am lonely....

有時候 我真的覺得好寂寞

友誼之光

友谊之光 


人生於世上有幾個知己
多少友誼能長存
今日別離共你雙雙兩握手
友誼常在你我心裏
今天且要暫別
他朝也定能聚首
縱使不能會面
始終也是朋友
說有萬里山 隔阻兩地遙
不需見面 心中也知曉
友誼改不了
人生於世上有幾個知己
多少友誼能長存
今日別離共你雙雙兩握手
友誼常在你我心裏
今天且要暫別
他朝也定能聚首
縱使不能會面
始終也是朋友
說有萬里山 隔阻兩地遙
不需見面 心中也知曉
友誼改不了

This is the main theme song for a very classic movie.
This movie is one of the movie that deeply influence me till today.

I remember I am at my primary school stage when i watch this movie in the TV.
And that time I am deeply scared by the harsh and complicate life in the prison.
And thus tell myself never ever do any wrong and end up in the prison.
Always control your wrath and anger, no matter in whats condition.

Even to this day, when I am driving on the road, I will try not to press the honk when I see the car in front of me driving recklessly. Control my anger...

But I guess now the life in prison is no longer as dark secret society as portray in this movie.
Lot's of activist for human rights have protest to improve the condition. To the point that some people feel life in prison is better than a normal white collar life and student life.

最近比較忙

最近比較忙, 比較忙, 比較忙

New job, new company, new faces, new colleague, new environment, new system, new responsibility.

And I need to catch up a lot....

haiz... really miss the relax at my old job. At least I go to office, I am confident to handle any kind of problem that may arise.

But then can't compare that way. I just started to work for 3 days at this new company. And for old company I have almost 1 year experience there...

No dream is too big to be archive.....

I don't know since when.... Maybe is from all the ultraman cartoon that I watch as a kid. Or maybe is the Masked Kamen Rider. Or those 5 different color hero that each drive a different robot and can join together to combine as a big robot and then go fight other outer space monster. Or is it the long forgotten Robotech/Macross
I guess that time I already feel Japan is a very special place... A place that I wish to go.... But as we all grow older, we will realise some dream is just too hard to realise

I don't know when it start again.. but this dream is all become an impossible to achieve dream. I guess I mature and grow up fast enough not to dream anymore as a kid....

Now this dream to go to Japan is slowly becoming possible for me again...

Or I am making this dream possible.

Going to Japan Tokyo this coming November....

Lesson to learn, no dream is too big to be archive if you keep believing.

Leaving

Gonna leave the current company soon. Of to another new environment and start a new life.
It is all good here... Work is chaotic as usual. But since I have understand of the system here, I still manage to survive. But everything will be a new beginning at the new company. So probably no more Facebook or blogging during work time....

My colleague here suggest for a farewell with me. But for me it kinds of unnecessary, because
1. If we are really friend, then we will still meet each other in the future for dinner etc.
2. If we are just colleague kind of relationship that we won't go out for movie etc, then most likely the farewell is just in the surface. Not the kind that touch the hearts with hugs and wishes...
3. Plus it gonna be quit rush to a nearby restaurant that I am bored with...Unless they choose the expensive French Restaurant downstair. :-)

At first I hope that I can go without anyone notice. Like the poem, "悄悄的我走了， 正如我悄悄的来，我挥一挥衣袖， 不带走一片云彩。" or the song "瀟瀟灑灑的，給我瀟灑的上機，痛痛快快，願能痛快話別離"

I still dream that someone will probably sing one of the song below after know I have left..

你说走就走　一去不再回头
让我在这里　痴痴等候
我以为这一次你只不过是说说而已
没想到你是真的要走


你這剎那在何方　我有說話未曾講
如何能連繫上　與你再相伴在旁


最心痛是　愛得太遲
有些心意　不可等某個日子
盲目地發奮　忙忙忙其實自私
夢中也習慣　有壓力要我得志
最可怕是　愛需要及時
只差一秒　心聲都已變歷史
忙極亦放肆　見我愛見的相知
要抱要吻要怎麼也好
偏要推說等下一次



Enough... too many song jor... XD
Will be endless if continue...

Leaving now... see what is the new "缘分" in the new company....

Time.....

Time is the best remedy for all wounds....

Time is also human biggest enemy....



Time slowly heal my sorrow and heart break.

Time also slowly age me.

Recently I start to notice wrinkle at my forehead...
Must got get some anti aging face care during my next trip....

I still remember when I first start to work, my colleague say I look so young and do not believe that I am 22. But now I am no longer the youngest in the company. My current company for example, have staff that is born in the 90s. That is almost 10 years younger than me. When I see them, I still feel I do not look too different from them. But when talk, I notice how naive inmature I am in the past. Haiz....

七夕情人節

有一个孤单的七夕情人節。。。。

我等的人，她在多远的未来？
我排著队拿著爱的号码牌


我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最伤人的话
最让人心碎
谁记得
谁忘了
我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

Life like a roller coaster ride

Recently I feel my life is like having a roller coaster ride.

It go up and down and take some spin sometime.

First I notice my new pc start to behave abnormally.
It will just reboot itself sometime. And even when it is not, it will still crash the firefox or chrome when I browse facebook.
So I try to tweak a little bit and play with the driver, software etc to get it updated.
But all gone bad when I try to reinstall the Window 7.

So I send the PC back to the seller and ask them to check.

The roller coaster ride looks like going down for me at that time.

Then, I got a call from a head hunter, asking if I am interested with a new job.
It sounds very very very good offer. As the company will send me to Germany for training for a year.
I am very glad at that time.
And the next day another head hunter call and ask if I am interested to be the team lead for a bank helpdesk.
Not bad either as considering that this is a team lead position.

And now the ride is going up again...

But the ride turn back down when I go for my travel visa application, the document I provide is incorrect and I need to go again. They do not accept photocopy or scanned document. Must be original with hand signature.

Lucky, when I am back in the office, the HR have pass down the original copy so it should be fine.

Then after a few day of no further news, I guess the head hunter decide I am not suitable for the job. No more call from them for any interview.

Then yesterday I went to the Embassy for the 4th time and get my visa on the same day. But to my surprise, that visa is only valid from 23 July 2012 till 23 Oct 2012. That means it will expired before my travelling date. I was like "What happening!!?!?!" The officer just explained that it is like this and I should not apply so early. And nothing he can do to change it.
The only choice I left with is to submit a new visa application after the current one expired.

The roller coaster ride is going down down down.....

The new 86

Just got my first car. A Perodua 1.3l MyVI.
Coincidentally the plat number end with "86" again. So this is 86 2nd generation.
More powerful. More VROOOMMMMM

So, to all my friend, I need sponsor for my car decoration.

Please help as much as you can.

I am now certified Car Loan Slave. Every month need to pay RM1,000. (>.<)

Are you lonesome tonight.........

多少個秋　多少個冬　我幾乎快要被治癒好
但還是會只因為一個重覆的話題　就無心自擾

也曾想過　若真遇見　我們應該如何是好
我想我還是會還站在某一個街角　不讓你看到

..........

我只好假裝我聽不到　聽不到別人口中的她好不好
再不想問　也不想被通知到　反正你的世界我管不了


A friend ask me am I emo? I guess I am not emo, just that never recovered fully........
I taught I have, but just can't help sometimes, wondering what is she doing now.
I never feel I have very good memory, but a lot of her just won't leave my memory.

And in lonesome night like these, the feeling just feel stronger.

Lots of my friend that get married last year start to either announce that they are pregnant, or the baby is born this year. Congratulation to them. I guess now they have a better reason to live, to go to work.

I remember I ask one of the friend, why get married? Her answer is don't want to feel loneliness. The feeling when you are all alone when you are sick is very saddening. Well I couldn't help but wander, getting married doesn't solved that. The spouse maybe going out with friend or need to meet client when you feel loneliness too. But that is the answer in my mind. I did not tell my friend these.

A game I have been playing, Diablo III, have a very memorable quote :

Enchantress : These land is so empty
Player (Demon Hunter) : Does that bother you?
Enchantress : No. There are an emptiness within me as well.

I like these word as it suit my feeling a lot. Emptiness within me as well.


Well enough of babbling about my life.
Let's update some of what happen to me recently.
Not much to say though, except that I still playing Diablo 3 and is in Inferno mode now. Level 60.

A little secret, I suddenly need to bought a new car this year and all my saving will be used up. To the point that I can't even survive this month without financial aid from my mom. But for some spooky weird reason, I have a dream one night. I dream that I bought lucky number and win the prize money. The number is the last 4 digit of my house number. And so I remember I keep hear 2741 from the back. And so I bought 1472 and win 2nd prize. The spooky part is right after I wake up, I remember the last 4 digit of my house phone number is not 2741 but is 7241. If I bought that number instead, I won't be winning the prize money. Feel it is like destined or an unseen spiritual force that help me to go thru this dark time of my life.

Also I hope to plan a trip for my coming birthday this year, but yet to decide the location.
Korea for Winter sound nice but too many preparation for clothing and will be a big hassle if I travel alone.
If Spring or Summer, then it will be much easier to travel around.

Another location I am considering is Bangkok? Feel like again to this city. But this year really feel peaceful. So I feel I should go back and show gratitude to the 4-Faces god(Erawan Shrine in Bangkok) that I pray during my last visit. I feel this is what help me this year.

Diablo 3

I guess this will be my biggest gift for myself this year.

Diablo 3

In order to play this game, I have spend almost RM 4,000.
RM3500 to build the gaming rig, RM300 for mouse, key board and external hard disc, RM200 for the game Diablo 3.
The price for the thrill and excitement, PRICELESS.


About the game itself, although it still name as Action RPG, the RPG element have been reduced to minimum.
Although the strength, dexterity, intelligence and vitality still there, but this has been preset growing stat. Not something a player can change depend on their playing ability.

The different skill that each class have also can be set and change anytime the player like. Feel more like a player can choose what type of gun to use depend on the situation. Like a FPS action game.

So is this a bad move? I feel it bring down the long dragging hours of leveling up the character and let player have more action. Nevertheless I still enjoy the game very much.

Btw, my pc now boot up super fast. In less than 5 seconds.

Love your job, but never Love your company

Love your job, but never Love your company
Because you never know when the company will stop to love you
And in most case, the company don't love you, appreciate you or reward you with gift and bonus

That is a a word of advice from a senior friend. And I always find this ultimate truth.

Sometimes it really demotivate me to work when I am making sacrifice for the company but not appreciated.
Like I continue to come work when I am not feeling well and the company treat me as I am lazying around here and not doing work properly...

Expiry Date....

不知道从什么时候开始，在什么东西上面都有个日期，秋刀鱼会过期，肉罐头会过期，连保鲜纸都会过期，我开始怀疑，在这个世界上，还有什么东西是不会过期的？

Somehow everything comes with an expiry date. Swordfish expires. Meat sauce expires. Even cling-film expires. Is there anything in the world which doesn't?


Quoted from the movie 《重庆森林》 or Chung King Express.

That is my feeling now.


I just found out Friendster have change. Change the interface etc. No email is sent to inform me to keep the old photo. They just delete it.....


The photo of a very expensive meal that I have with her got deleted just like that. Together with this incident, is my feeling got deleted just like that. Perhaps it is what should happen to a love that have past the expiry date. It is should be throw away. But why I just feel such a sadness in my heart?

I just feel melancholy again...

我可能不会爱你

听过很多台湾的网友说这个《我可能不会爱你》偶像剧很好看。
看到第二集，我觉得他比很多台湾偶像剧好看。 没那么的漫画感觉。 比较贴近我们现实生活。
这个偶像剧也有很多美女。 有台大五姬的国企匡—陈匡怡和资工弥—余涵弥。 小周慧敏,陳匡怡真的超可爱。 他真得很像周慧敏。
剧里的女主角程又青很像我。靠近初老了，三十岁了，却发现我身边值得我去努力的女生好像都没有。我比她参的是我没有个大仁哥在身边。

我真得很讨厌现在的生活。感觉好像行尸走肉的过日子。 也许我需要少林足球那样，要有梦想。人没梦想那跟僵尸有什么分别。

看到第8集。 感觉好伤心。我哭了很多次。 好像从没有看戏剧哭得那么多次。 受过伤的心， 所以有很多的感觸。

男人不坏，女人不爱。我想这句话是因为，坏人中会不安牌理出牌。 大仁的妹妹也说了，普通人会说 “我好想你”， 坏人会说 “现在出现在我面前”。
我就一定不能像丁立伟那样，走去又青的办公室，趴在和他同一个楼梯， 吃他的豆腐。 我太理智了。不可能像他那样。。。。

看到第11集， 我突然想起，我好象做过和李大仁很象的事。 为了让最喜欢的人不那么担心，为了让他高兴， 就是缀合他和别人，也会用尽全力去做。
只为了不像看到他不快乐，只为了他幸福。就算这样会让他很伤心， 很伤心。。。。。

有句话我放在心里很久了，爱情虽然不是同情，但是能够陪着你哭，能够在你不高兴时候让你快乐的人，你要懂得珍惜。就算不爱他， 也要用心的去关心他。 因为这世界上， 会陪着你哭的人不多。

还有假如你遇到一个能搞让你感动的哭的人，就好好想想你和他的关系。因为能搞感动到你的人， 是对你很特别的人。例如， 在情人节，有100个男生送你花， 但是只有一个人送的花是让你感动到流泪，那个人就是你很特别的人。 也许你爱上了他，你也没发现。

每天看完了《我可能不会爱你》偶像剧我就会发表我的感想。 是我真心感受。甜酸苦辣都有。看到结局, 看到程又青和李大仁他们有情人终成眷属, 真的好感动。 以前就会想要轰轰烈烈,爱到你死我也活不了的那种爱情。现在觉得,能像他们那样才是辛福。

One Day

I finally watch this movie One Day. The story of 2 person that meet on a one fine day and it become their annual event every year to meet up on this date. They become the closest kind of "Just Friend". Really sweet movie but can be sad too depend on how you view it.




Really love it coz it just feel so sweet.I like some of the words it the movie
"I need to speak to someone. Not someone. You"
"She made you decent. And in return you made her so Happy"


Love really just happen on that some day. Sometimes maybe just that one sudden special moment that you will notice that this is the person you want to spend the rest of the life with. No logic explanation.

Maybe that just what happen with me and her. So close yet so far. I have been trying to avoid contacting her but I slowly find my will getting weaker..... I notice she just arranged for a trip with some friends to Vietnam.

Feels like everyone making some progress to some place but only me is still staying at the same spot, wondering and loss direction. Maybe that is the reason why I am out of luck in love....

I need to get up and move again.

2012

The much feared 2012 is finally here.

So is it doomday? From the look of global weather changes that is happening, it seems to prove that we are getting closer to our own doom. Anyway, whether this will happen or not we can't do much to change it back
So lets just live our life.

First lets look back 2011, a year of ups and down. I got fired or I should say everybody in my ex company got screwed and lost their job suddenly. And it is on 11 Sept. Such a nice date 911.

That is perhaps the bottom of the valley for me in 2011. But all the time that pass while slowly reaching Sept is stretching me too... Wondering around aimlessly.
I start to wonder what I am worth.

Thus the decision to go Bangkok for relax seems to be a foolish one but I really enjoy it.
Woke up in familiar city name but strange scenery compare to Kuala Lumpur. It feels like a new life, a new begining.

Seeing how everyone rush around trying to survive. Makes me think back the past event and what I have done.

And then the back to Malaysia to look for a job...
Also hearing people around me wondering why I gone to Bangkok for 2 consecutive year.
I guess silent is best answer for this because the more you talk about it, the more they can imagine.

And so 2011 past by. Time do not wait for anyone. Either you keep up with it or get left behind.

2012 arrive with a good sign. On 1st Jan 2012, I went to Genting Casino and got stop by the cop. They taught I am underage teenager trying to sneak into the casino. So I happily show them my identification card that clearly show I am well over the teenager age. But I am not angry with the cop.
Coz he just feel that I look young. (^____^)

Of course the other good sign is the small fortune I have with my luck in the casino. (^______________^)

So this seems to indicate 2012 will be a good year.


When you're happy like a fool
Let it take you over
When everything is out
You gotta take it in

Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life

Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life

Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh
A good good life Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.